Before I got married, one of my biggest worries was how will I cope without my family so close by. I wrote a post about this a few months back, check it here. I knew ahead of time that i will be moving to Nigeria and leaving my family behind in London so the issue was on my mind all the time. It was the thing i thought about the most, I psyched myself that it wouldn’t be that bad, and truly it hasn’t been bad. I missed them but it wasn’t to the extent that I was dying to see them or I would start crying until recently……
Recently I have seriously missed my family. Especially when I go on snapchat & see family dinner or gatherings uploaded by my siblings. There are days that i just cannot handle the feeling. I cry sometimes. Other times i hold it inside of me. We speak nearly every day, but it’s not the same. I continue to feel that a huge part of me is missing. It is really hard. It is as hard as i thought it would be and even harder. The fact that we are not in the same county makes it even harder, I can’t just get in the car and drive to them.
I guess what triggered this emotion was when my mum sent me a text telling me how much she missed me and thanking me for everything I did when I was home (cooking & cleaning) I just wanted to give her a big hug.
I’m married now, and have started a family of my own, and soon my family of two will have an addition. It is the cycle of life i guess, but with all that fully understood by me, i cannot help but have such feelings. I just wish i could jump on the first flight and go to see them, but that is not possible now.
I have always wondered and now even more so, how do newly married cope with missing their parents? Their siblings?
I love my husband sooo much but I cannot help but miss my family even more.